It's the last term of my high school career and I couldn't be more than ready to leave, or escape really. I chose Temple University as my home for the next four years. It really came down to Northeastern and Temple. To be honest, I'd been stressing about it for days and Azim had started lecturing me about it in his patronizing way so I just sucked it up and sort-of picked Temple on a whim. Not that great of a college admissions story, right? But, I guess if I did pick Temple on a "whim" that means that I really did want to go to Temple and was just too nervous to say it. Overall I'm pretty happy with my decision; everything seems to be working out perfectly, Binta is still my roommate, and everyone seems pretty chill. Sometimes I have that flicker of doubt though when I get a letter in the mail from Northeastern or I see someone with a Northeastern hoodie on. On the Temple Facebook page, there were kids who had chosen Temple over Northeastern and even NYU. I think that made me feel a little bit more reassured that I wasn't a complete idiot for my decision. I really can't wait though - Philadelphia already seems more like home. It's really nice that Auntie Maria will be nearby in case I get the bubonic plague or something. I've always looked up to her since I was little and it might be nice to be around that kind of free energy for a little bit. Maybe it'll help me be a little bit more free, a little less defensive, and a LOT more open.
The thing is though - I'm still here for a little bit. I've learned a lot about a lot of people who I spend nearly every day in school with and these details are more and more disappointing. People are fake, conniving, and selfish, but I guess those are human tendencies. I'm proud of myself for not caring as much and not letting it get to me as much. I'm not going to see 99% of these people anyway so I just want to leave on good terms; let them work out their own issues.
I really just hope I don't go off on someone while I'm here.
Until I leave I'm just going to keep my head low and keep making money.
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