#LosingMyBalance

I'm currently listening to that Unthinkable Remix with Drake and contemplating my life situation.  I'm too down with all the good things that are going on in my life.  It's not that I don't appreciate options; I'm just too afraid of choosing the wrong one.  Lately, this fear has been more connected to college admissions more than anything - but I think I'll be fine.  And with all these college admissions decisions, I have felt more and more disconnected from the people in my life now.  Sure, they're going to be temporary but I sure wish we could get along while we're coexisting.  I don't understand why people make such a fuss over trivial things when there's so much more to worry about - ha.
Prospects of college are daunting but always inspiring.  Temple Experience Day was great and I really almost started tearing up while I was there.  Shit, sad movies don't make me cry but Accepted Students' Day did?  I think it's more the excitement of being on the cusp of everything I've been waiting for - for so long.  That's why I don't want to mess it up!
On the plus side, I got an 27" iMac.  Once you go Mac, you never go back.
Third term is closing this Friday and then it's truly the homestretch.. Damn.  I guess I'll just listen to some J. Cole for now and try to breathe easy.

"Losing My Balance" - J. Cole

I was weightlisted at Fordham and denied from NYU.

It makes me really wish I had done this college admissions process more efficiently.

Now I'm going to most likely choose between Temple and Northeastern.

Gah.

I feel like everything is falling apart and I can't do anything to fix it.

Which one should I choose?

... I mean it's only my life.

a good week just got better!

Ah!  So, where do I begin??  Beginning of this week, I pulled in another first at DECA States'!  That was exciting, too bad not everyone was there for the finals awards show... *cough* *cough*.
Then, Tuesday - HARLEM WIZARDS! (Ahhhh!)  That was so much fun and too see an event I orchestrated working so well was undescribable.  TJ "Tomahawk" was pretty helpful in all of that.. BX whaddup?!  Granted, I didn't get to sleep until like... forever - but it was worth it!  Too bad I'm starting to slip in school, I'll just need to suck it up and crank it out.
Something happened, that I've been waiting to happen forever. I'm still smiling...
And, finallyyyyy, MTV called!  That was too cool.  I'm still at a loss for words
I really wish I had more energy to write.  What's the whole point of chronicling a year if I'm too tired to rightfully write a day?! 
Oh.  Got into Emerson & Northeastern.  Ayoo Boston!

It's already nearly halfway through March.  Damn!  I guess I need to start doing my make-up work for this term.  ...Senioritis has become a serious problem.  It just worsened with the removal of four impacted wisdom teeth.  Although, my cousin is getting her tonsils removed soon so I'm not in the position to complain.
DECA States is this week and I'm too nervous.  Harlem Wizards is next week and I'm rightfully nervous, a lot of potential.  Let's see what happens.
Got a Bob Marley sticker for my car.
Jah Rastafari!